Annika died that day, but the girl I was and everything I’d been working towards, died alongside her as well.
And what followed were some pretty dark years.
PTSD absolutely consumed me. I couldn’t feed myself, dress myself, shower myself, sleep. Let alone train. Let alone care about competing, or a race, or a future, for that matter.
I was forced to pull out of the Tokyo Olympics. And worse, I didn’t even care. I extended the final year of my university degree over three years, dragging my feet through the sand to barely graduate. I was isolated, lost and absolutely drowning.
I gave up everything I had. None of it mattered. I closed my business, packed a backpack and bought a oneway ticket out of Australia. No plan, no destination, just a desperate hope that somewhere, a meaningful life might still exist for me.
I solo traveled for over two years, hiking through Europe, the Middle East, Asia and North America. And then I found Western Washington University.